Seems I've entered the realm of jadedfrustratedhelplessness once again which means I turn to you McBloggerson. You can hold my hand while I emote. Perhaps we'll become lovers for a longer period this time. A May-December romance?
It's tempting to just sell all my most monetarily beneficial possessions, pay off my last bit of debt, and be content. Or to sell everything except clothes and a couple boxes and move to the Twin Cities or Portland again. Those are really the only places I would consider outside of Lone Star. Maybe Sacto.
The problem: if I can't be happy here with friends and family, what makes me think I can do so in another city? This is home.
Other problem: I'd just spend my money on something else. Tattoos, beer, and the like...
While my minor money woes may be solved, other abstract matters will not. My stonewall for instance. Or lack of faith in people. Or distrust.
I believe I'm going to give this music thing til the end of the summer. Then I'm selling all my bass stuff and starting the Nova project. I'll have control over the car and can put my creative juices to something. Too many hobbies clutter my mind, but the ones that are purely my own are the most satisfying. People flake out/bail/ignore.
I check the Missed Connections section on CL pretty often hoping one will be about me.
the end
1 comment:
but do you respond?
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