Fear Before the March of Flames

I'm absolutely terrified of the upcoming weeks and months. Uncertainty lurks. I've done my best to soldier on and try positivity, but the painworryfrustration is too great to ignore. Hope is absent; I lost it a while ago. Resentment eats at my soul. Loneliness gnaws. I can feel 'it' coming around again and am powerless to stop it. At least, I tell myself I'm helpless, but it's not true. All the advice sounds cliche and patronizing. Everyone means well, but the only person who can help me is me. I just have no idea where to start...